Saturday, June 26, 2010; First post from Melbourne
It's been raining non stop today, which makes it even colder.
Pathetic fallacy, to some extent :o
I don't feel like saying much.. Just the fact that it's raining now. Lol
Wednesday, June 09, 2010;
OKAY NON EMO POST!!!!
Today, I
- Packed my clothing. Took out alllll my longsleeved warm clothing. And a few dresses just in case. And jeans, leggings, blabla. Wanted to bring all my cedar house tees which I always wear to sleep. But mum rolled her eyes and let me bring only 1? Hm.
- Lay on the bed with Tonia darling and we sang and sang and sang all kinds of random songs until I fell asleep. That little sweetheart secretly knows how to sing quite a few of my favourite songs, much to my delight. Probably because I kept playing the songs on loop one day, and she was forced to learn the songs. Hohoho. And we tried rapping songs like "U Can't Touch This", Glee Cast version. It was retarded and hilarious. :D
I have suddenly lost the mood to blog. Lalala bye
Monday, June 07, 2010; Love so much
Had a great dinner at Jumbo Seafood Restaurant with my family (dad's side).. The food was awesome but sadly I didn't have much appetite. Hm or maybe that's a good thing.... But anyway, I guess it's cuz I was preoccupied in my thoughts throughout dinner. And kinda emotional, too.
I've never ever felt emotions like these before. Each and every relationship I have with everyone I love brings with it a different kind of sadness and emotional attachment. With every different face that fills my heart and mind, there are so much memories and I can still see the smiles, hear the laughter, feel the joy.
And it hurts so bad when I see the people I love cry. I've never even seen some of them cry before, and now I've seen it, and it's because of me. I'm terrible. I didn't wanna bring sadness to you.
Don't cry, I love you. Your tears are precious to me.
I'll take care of you and protect you even from miles away (:
Yesterday my family sat in front of KelvinQQ's tv for karaoke. It was so awesome when everyone sang "I have a dream" together.. I recorded it(: It can totally bring me to tears.
Sorry for the extremely emo post....
Friday, June 04, 2010;
I just have to tell myself what everyone says.
Five/six months ain't that long! Itsalright!
it sounds pretty darn long to me for now.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010;
Okay I'm feeling so much better.
A good cry always helps.
And I'm v grateful, thank you v much(:
I think facebook pages are extremely creative and actually quite amazing, 'cuz you realize that many people actually went through/are going through same situations, have the same fetisheshabits etc, think the same way and blablabla.
I like this quote I saw from facebook!
"Don't make a girl fall for you if you have no intention of catching her."
Okay to be fair this should apply to both genders. Girls w.r.t guys too. Or girls w.r.t girls. Or guys w.r.t guys. :o
Its so meaningful.
But sometimes one might think that he/she would be willing to catch the other party. But halfway through freefall, maybe they'd get distracted and look away and fail to catch the poor fella. Boom fall down die. Or maybe they'll freak out and think "Omg shit I think too heavy, cmi" then run away. Also boom fall down die.
Or or or they'll be trying to catch the fella then accidently fall in love with someone else into another hole or smth. Nobody to catch youuuu~
Or you'll fall and the person would be there and you'll land in his/her arms?
*hopeful*
Okay this is totally nonsense and pointless.
.....
So like. Must watch your weight. Don't break his arms. Or his back.
Or his...........
Okay I need to stop. Bye
Tuesday, June 01, 2010;
How tricky life can get.
At those times where you just need it the most.. Those whom you thought would be there and hope would be there are everywhere but there.
But those whom you never thought would be there somehow just appear without you calling at all and contribute a nice word or two. Makes you feel so much less alone and pathetic. Thanks for that, though I don't think you'd read this. Don't be so nice to me ):
1) I feel stupid and lonely and stupid. Oh wait, I said that already
2) I miss my grandma. She went to live with aunt to get used to it. I cried, but who knows. (okay now you do but thats not counted)
3) I feel so hurt that such betrayal could exist, even when I'm not the one directly betrayed. Why are you doing this?
4) I'm going away. Soon. Or maybe its a good thing? OH YAY IM LEAVING WOOHOO CANT STAND THIS NO MORE ok fail.
I'm stupid
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I feel effing stupid beyond words.