im leavin' on 12/06/2010, 2335hrs.
Lol.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010;
; 'Cuz distance would never matter II
..... And this of course, is for dearest krystalbao.
One of the moments that I'll never forget is seeing both our names on the board under 02/08, and feeling such joy and amazement. I'll never forget how much I felt like jumping for joy (oh wait, I actually did jump for joy), and how I called you immediately, shrieking the news to you. Do you know how freakin happy I was???? (:
Six years, my dear. I remember how you were one of my first friends in sec one and all the retarded stuff that happened as a result of our childishness :p Those memories never fail to bring a smile to my face and give me that warm fuzzy feeling. I don't know how to express how grateful I am to you for being so understanding and accepting towards me, being there with me and for me through those tumultuous times. I know there have been many instances where I was very difficult and moody, and you had to take my nonsense ): But really, I don't think you know how big a part you had to play esp those days in sec four, when so many a time I felt like giving up. You kept me going! (: I'll always remember the nights we studied tgt at mac till superduper late. You are such a blessing and I always thank God for bringing you into my life. :')
I'm sorry for those times I wasn't there for you, and for those times I wasn't a good friend to you):
Distance wouldnt matter. I love youuuuuuuuu muacks!!!!! 
One of the moments that I'll never forget is seeing both our names on the board under 02/08, and feeling such joy and amazement. I'll never forget how much I felt like jumping for joy (oh wait, I actually did jump for joy), and how I called you immediately, shrieking the news to you. Do you know how freakin happy I was???? (:
Six years, my dear. I remember how you were one of my first friends in sec one and all the retarded stuff that happened as a result of our childishness :p Those memories never fail to bring a smile to my face and give me that warm fuzzy feeling. I don't know how to express how grateful I am to you for being so understanding and accepting towards me, being there with me and for me through those tumultuous times. I know there have been many instances where I was very difficult and moody, and you had to take my nonsense ): But really, I don't think you know how big a part you had to play esp those days in sec four, when so many a time I felt like giving up. You kept me going! (: I'll always remember the nights we studied tgt at mac till superduper late. You are such a blessing and I always thank God for bringing you into my life. :')
I'm sorry for those times I wasn't there for you, and for those times I wasn't a good friend to you):
Distance wouldnt matter. I love youuuuuuuuu muacks!!!!!
Monday, April 26, 2010; 'Cuz distance would never matter
.....And this is for my dearest babiepie.
I'll always remember those times we shared, the tonnes of crazy jokes and laughter, the buckets of tears and sadness. I treasure all those moments so much, and I thank God so so much for bringing this little bundle of happiness into my life (Ok you sound like my baby or smth :D). Although there were tough times during our friendship, such as getting angry or disappointed with each other, thank you my little sweetheart for accepting me and loving me for who I am, for the past 6 years. Thank you for listening to me whenever I was in tears, thank you for letting me listen to you when you were in tears. Thank you for having faith in me, and never giving up on me. I'm sorry for being a terrible friend at times too.. Anyhow, distance would never matter, I'll love you alwaaaaaaaaaays muacks muacks.
I hope I'll never ever beat 8cm. I don't wanna I don't wanna. HAHAHA.
<3>
hunny
I'll always remember those times we shared, the tonnes of crazy jokes and laughter, the buckets of tears and sadness. I treasure all those moments so much, and I thank God so so much for bringing this little bundle of happiness into my life (Ok you sound like my baby or smth :D). Although there were tough times during our friendship, such as getting angry or disappointed with each other, thank you my little sweetheart for accepting me and loving me for who I am, for the past 6 years. Thank you for listening to me whenever I was in tears, thank you for letting me listen to you when you were in tears. Thank you for having faith in me, and never giving up on me. I'm sorry for being a terrible friend at times too.. Anyhow, distance would never matter, I'll love you alwaaaaaaaaaays muacks muacks.
I hope I'll never ever beat 8cm. I don't wanna I don't wanna. HAHAHA.
<3>
hunny
Saturday, April 24, 2010; Tears
I'm a month away from lots of tears.
Don't forget me too fast, please (:
Don't forget me too fast, please (:
Tuesday, April 20, 2010;
"If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was."
Richard Bach
Richard Bach
Monday, April 19, 2010;
ABSOLUTELY LOVED CHICAGO- THE MUSICAL.
Thank you sooo much Gloria and Junyang for wanting to watch it too if not I would have missed this awesome musical.
The vocals, dancing and acting were amazing. The stage effects and music were great, too. The entire musical was captivating, and I was sad when it ended. Haha. Of course, the company was wonderful too (: Had sakae for lunch and after the musical, had Max Brenner's which was as usual, wicked >:) Maybe thats why I've been feeling so fat these few days.
I'll sure miss you guys when I'm gone ^^
Thank you sooo much Gloria and Junyang for wanting to watch it too if not I would have missed this awesome musical.
The vocals, dancing and acting were amazing. The stage effects and music were great, too. The entire musical was captivating, and I was sad when it ended. Haha. Of course, the company was wonderful too (: Had sakae for lunch and after the musical, had Max Brenner's which was as usual, wicked >:) Maybe thats why I've been feeling so fat these few days.
I'll sure miss you guys when I'm gone ^^
Friday, April 16, 2010; Cuz I'm leavin' on a jet plane
So it's done.
Went down to IDP today to hand in my acceptance form and pay the deposit.
What a whirlwind of emotions in me right now.. Part of me feels numb, I don't know what just happened. Did I really pluck up the courage to sign that form and commit myself to a path of no return? Its gonna be tough, I know it is. I'm probably gonna cry and feel like dying, esp for the first part of my being away. But I'm gonna do it anyway. I swear I need to grow and learn. I swear I need to change and become a different person, in some way or another.
Then again, besides that conviction, I'm scared shitless. (ha ha no pun intended about the shit part) I have no idea what its gonna be like. I remember those days where I first went into Hwach, where I cried so often due to the pressure/loneliness/fear. So how's it gonna be, in a completely foreign place with the people that I live for being miles away?
I'm pathetic at being brave, strong and independent. I try so hard to be and i successfully fake it most of the time. But you don't know how much I want to run home when I'm out there, alone, and insecure. I suck. But I swear I'll learn. I have to become stronger, have to stop depending so much on my family, have to be independent.
And I gotta start learning how to live without air. I dont know how I'm gonna do it? Oh shit just the thought hurts so bad now I really think I'm gonna die.
I wish I was stronger. Then maybe I wouldn't feel so afraid now.
Went down to IDP today to hand in my acceptance form and pay the deposit.
What a whirlwind of emotions in me right now.. Part of me feels numb, I don't know what just happened. Did I really pluck up the courage to sign that form and commit myself to a path of no return? Its gonna be tough, I know it is. I'm probably gonna cry and feel like dying, esp for the first part of my being away. But I'm gonna do it anyway. I swear I need to grow and learn. I swear I need to change and become a different person, in some way or another.
Then again, besides that conviction, I'm scared shitless. (ha ha no pun intended about the shit part) I have no idea what its gonna be like. I remember those days where I first went into Hwach, where I cried so often due to the pressure/loneliness/fear. So how's it gonna be, in a completely foreign place with the people that I live for being miles away?
I'm pathetic at being brave, strong and independent. I try so hard to be and i successfully fake it most of the time. But you don't know how much I want to run home when I'm out there, alone, and insecure. I suck. But I swear I'll learn. I have to become stronger, have to stop depending so much on my family, have to be independent.
And I gotta start learning how to live without air. I dont know how I'm gonna do it? Oh shit just the thought hurts so bad now I really think I'm gonna die.
I wish I was stronger. Then maybe I wouldn't feel so afraid now.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010;
I feel like crying right now.
(But I can't, I'm in the office)
(But I can't, I'm in the office)
Monday, April 12, 2010;
This song is extremely apt to describe how I might be feeling now. To all the people I love
No Air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air -
No No air, air -
No No air, air -
No No air, air
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
You got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No Air
If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh
I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand
But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
No air, air -
No No air, air -
No No air, air -
No No air, air
I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real
But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care
So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe
[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
You got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air
Sunday, April 11, 2010;
There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
-Ella Wheeler Wilcox
This can totally bring me to tears.
I'm sorry to all whom I love the best, and those who loves me best, for ever hurting you.
Tesia Shiying Tonia Ruize Ryan Kyla
if JJ goes to Aus for university, cannot forget me okay (':
And no matter what, JJ loves you all forever and ever and will always be there for you though we might be miles apart. And I will always be there for you to depend on no matter what.
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
-Ella Wheeler Wilcox
This can totally bring me to tears.
I'm sorry to all whom I love the best, and those who loves me best, for ever hurting you.
Tesia Shiying Tonia Ruize Ryan Kyla
if JJ goes to Aus for university, cannot forget me okay (':
And no matter what, JJ loves you all forever and ever and will always be there for you though we might be miles apart. And I will always be there for you to depend on no matter what.
; Stupid jar
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaah somebody tell me why I cannot open the stupid jar. I am hungry I want to eat my aloe vera in the jar. But I cannot open it I've tried immersing the top part in hot water I've tried leaving it to warm up but it won't budge!!!!!!!!!!!!! My dad cuz he's sleeping and my mum's bathing. And I have to pit the jar back into the fridge. I AM SO SAD NOW i hate the jar
))))))))))))))))))))): jar
))))))))))))))))))))): jar
;
Yay I'm excited for Chicago next Sat.
Its been quite awhile since I've gone to watch a musical, the last being The Phantom Of The Opera with mum & dad. I hope Chicago is really as good as it sounds!
But anyway I'm really glad for the company, thanks junyang and gloria for wanting to watch it too (:
I went jogging today. After about half a year, I finally went for a jog again. Yay. And I think that explains why I'm so sleepy and tired now. Usually I can last till much later on Sat nights.
Gnight world
Its been quite awhile since I've gone to watch a musical, the last being The Phantom Of The Opera with mum & dad. I hope Chicago is really as good as it sounds!
But anyway I'm really glad for the company, thanks junyang and gloria for wanting to watch it too (:
I went jogging today. After about half a year, I finally went for a jog again. Yay. And I think that explains why I'm so sleepy and tired now. Usually I can last till much later on Sat nights.
Gnight world
Wednesday, April 07, 2010;
Ah, quotes
"It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride."
"Laugh as much as you breathe, and love as long as you live."
"True love burns the brightest. But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars."
These days I just enjoy reading quotes. Contains so much wisdom, expressed in such apt and beautiful ways.
"It is better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than to lose that someone you love with your useless pride."
"Laugh as much as you breathe, and love as long as you live."
"True love burns the brightest. But the brightest flames leave the deepest scars."
These days I just enjoy reading quotes. Contains so much wisdom, expressed in such apt and beautiful ways.
Monday, April 05, 2010; Busrides and emotions
I feel lost.
Anyway, I finally did it. I got onto a bus for no reason, just to think and sort out my thoughts. But unfortunately, I'm not brave enough to get onto any random bus. I took the bus which took me to my previous workplace.
My heart's messed up, but who would get it? Everything, it's colliding. It's a wreck that could only be restructured with time.
Anyway, I finally did it. I got onto a bus for no reason, just to think and sort out my thoughts. But unfortunately, I'm not brave enough to get onto any random bus. I took the bus which took me to my previous workplace.
My heart's messed up, but who would get it? Everything, it's colliding. It's a wreck that could only be restructured with time.
Friday, April 02, 2010; I was up before the sun rose today
I WILL MISS YOU JASMINE KWEK!
Sent jas off at the airport early this morning, there were so many people sending her off that she had to hop from group to group taking pics and all. Felt a little emotional at some points but the general mood of the whole group of people there was quite calm so obviously I swallowed up my emotions hehe. All the best my dear, be happy and take care of yourself k?
Had a great time together with two different groups of people, classmates (gloria, junyang, bo, adrain, kj, ant, sher) and my darlings krystal and peipei afterwards. Thanks for the wonderful day everyone. FYI, I went home, bathed, and instantly fell asleep on the bed haha.
Oh the movie When In Rome was not bad. Highly entertaining but not one of the best chic flicks I've watched hehehe.
Krystal if you're reading this, HI. You're prob the only one who knows I'm blogging again HAHAHAHA.
Here are some quotes I came across just now:
“Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it.”
“No one acts more foolishly than a wise man in love.”
Oh oh and this one is good:
Ambrose Bierce:
Love: a temporary insanity, curable by marriage.
Sent jas off at the airport early this morning, there were so many people sending her off that she had to hop from group to group taking pics and all. Felt a little emotional at some points but the general mood of the whole group of people there was quite calm so obviously I swallowed up my emotions hehe. All the best my dear, be happy and take care of yourself k?
Had a great time together with two different groups of people, classmates (gloria, junyang, bo, adrain, kj, ant, sher) and my darlings krystal and peipei afterwards. Thanks for the wonderful day everyone. FYI, I went home, bathed, and instantly fell asleep on the bed haha.
Oh the movie When In Rome was not bad. Highly entertaining but not one of the best chic flicks I've watched hehehe.
Krystal if you're reading this, HI. You're prob the only one who knows I'm blogging again HAHAHAHA.
Here are some quotes I came across just now:
“Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it.”
“No one acts more foolishly than a wise man in love.”
Oh oh and this one is good:
Ambrose Bierce:
Love: a temporary insanity, curable by marriage.
Thursday, April 01, 2010;
Why do people show off stuff like that? I loathe it. It makes me feel sick. What on earth is wrong with you people.
; New and Improved
Yay okay my 6-year-old blog has been revamped.
I'm not sure why I wanted to start afresh. All along, I've been reluctant to do so, considering the amount of memories and rants collected here over the past 6 years. The good and bad, those that I am proud of and those that I'm, uh, not so proud of. But it ain't so bad, I did not delete those posts permanently but simply moved them someplace else. I'm not turning my back on my memories/past, but simply, giving myself a chance to create some new ones without the old ones looking on and possibly dragging me down.
I'm not sure who'd still come back here since I've left emblazoned.blogspot.com stagnant for so long. But if you're here by chance cuz you're extremely bored or too interested in my life :p ,
HERES MY NEW OLD BLOG.
I've got tumblr too, but I'm not really gonna expose my tumblr to the whole world yet since tumblr consists of alot more emo stuff reblogged and created. :D
I'm not sure why I wanted to start afresh. All along, I've been reluctant to do so, considering the amount of memories and rants collected here over the past 6 years. The good and bad, those that I am proud of and those that I'm, uh, not so proud of. But it ain't so bad, I did not delete those posts permanently but simply moved them someplace else. I'm not turning my back on my memories/past, but simply, giving myself a chance to create some new ones without the old ones looking on and possibly dragging me down.
I'm not sure who'd still come back here since I've left emblazoned.blogspot.com stagnant for so long. But if you're here by chance cuz you're extremely bored or too interested in my life :p ,
HERES MY NEW OLD BLOG.
I've got tumblr too, but I'm not really gonna expose my tumblr to the whole world yet since tumblr consists of alot more emo stuff reblogged and created. :D